Kendra Wilkinson Is Still A Down N Dirty Girl

Girl Next Door Kendra has taken to her MySpace blog to explain a thing or two about life on the Playboy side. And it's not sex with Hef! Here she is:

We are now on our 4th season of The Girls Next Door now and things couldnt get any better. I am enjoying every minute and every day n im also appreciating everything to the fullest too. I love n appreciate everyone thats been with me from day 1 and i thank u for stayin with me through all this time. Ive grown up so much through these couple years mentally and physically Ive also learned so much but im still the same person ive always been and i will always be that person. Money n fame would and will never change me, i still dont even see myself as a character on tv I still look in the mirror n see the tomboy, athlete, down n dirty girl that grew up in clairemont san diego. Of course this show has changed my life though. I never in my dreams thought i would own my own condo, never thought i would ever walk red carpets, never thought id ever meet the people i have, never thought i would ever travel to the places ive been to, and never thought i had a future. When you see me on the show u see the happy, crazy, spunky me but u gotta remember that the show is only 30 min long and u only see 30 mins of my life. Sometimes people forget that im human n its hard on me sometimes. My grandpa is in hospice care in his last days and its the hardest thing i have to deal with cuz hes like a dad to me. Imagine shooting a reallity show while u have something REAL like that going on in your life n u have to kinda play happy all the time. hard shit man!we all have problems haha!

When i leave the mansion i do plan on getting married n having kids. I am officially obsessed with kids right now hahaha!! I plan on buying a normal house n live in san diego so i cn be next to the people i love and of course the teams i love ;D. I grew up very confused and depressed n because i chose to choose the better path i feel rewarded and happier than ever. My fam n i have never been closer n it feels so good! If the "fame" n "fortune" doesnt last, it wouldnt matter cuz the experience is all that counts to me.

I just wanted to share all this with u guys cuz i luv all ya n i appreciate all ya!! Enjoy the show!!!!! oh ya and i am happy that football is back haha!!!! GOOOOOOOOOO CHARGERS!!!!!!